lildream

12:11 am: ART!
I can't believe it, I think I may actually be able to make fan art..I made that LJ icon!! YAY! NOw I might be able to have an art section on my site! coolness! I've made other things too...well thats just cool...and it's really fun too!

11:39 pm: Butterfly
Hi I'm sitting here and I'm very tired but I don't wanna go to sleep right now.
The fish flies at midnight
and oy with the poodles already!

NIGHTY NIGHT

02:32 pm: Just for me
I took this off my website.
I decided noone prolly read it anyways. Now It's just somewhere to put my thoughts. Well today I am ..well thought-less. but I'm sure soon I will have stuff to write about but for now bye,

12:47 am: I'm baaaack
Wow, I've been so busy, it's driving me insane.
I got back from New York and went straight into school and plays...This weekend has been great relax time.

SO in website news: I've won more awards (which is awesome), I've made three new videos. One about Max from Roswell, one with Tristan and Rory of Gilmore Girls, and I just finished a Queer as folk one, involving Season 4 cuz I just got it..don't have showtime...and 4 is the only season I have. They should all be up soon.
-A new layout is in the works, I have four different ideas of what I want, and now I can't decide...I think since I'm loving QAF right now I might put up a Brian one I made.
-SO with the new layout will come the videos, I'm thinking, cuz if I'm gonna update why not go ALL OUT! I'm an overacheiver!
-Everything will be updated prolly after June 12th I think...cuz thats when schools out! YAY!

and now for what you should be doing....

Movie you should see: Wicker Park (Awesome movie, runs alittle slow at times, but it always keeps you wondering whats going on..and the way it looks is pretty)

Song you should hear: Anything by Relient K (their music is moving and excitng at the same time..check em out)

Tv show you should be watching: If you're lucky enough to get Showtime tune in on sundays at 10pm and watch Queer As Folk

Website to check out: www.addictinggames.com (games galore for when you're bored)

Love always!
Laura

08:27 pm: New Layout
So my new layouts up on the site!
YAY!
As it says on the page I've already started working on a version three. I'm gonna try to add things from alot of different movies and TV shows I like, since my site is about my favorite things. But that is put aside until summer.

I just made a new Roswell vid but I'm not sure I like it enough to put it on the site.

I've recently discovered Gilmore Girls...and I LOVE it! I'm sucked in! I got the first season for X-mas and just watched and I couldn't stop! I've already finished it and it's been like a week! Well besides my sad sad life I have discovered a new ship I love. For the first time it's a ship that didn't really exist. I love the chemisty between Rory and Tristan! It's so cool. So relating to that I've decided to make a video using them and making it look like they were in love with one another! It should be fun.

So just to humor myself cuz I bet noone reads this thing I've decided to change the icon like everyday, cuz I freakn' LOVE LJ icons. SO yeah my mood will be represented by my icon or just what I'm interested in at the time. Also I'm gonna put some suggestions of things to watch/listen/go to cuz I wanna. So here we go

Movie you should watch : Mean Creek
Song you should hear : Don't Phunk with my Heart by Black Eyed Peas
TV show you should be watching : Gilmore Girls
Web Site you should go to : CuteStuf.com

There ya go! Peace out!

07:09 pm: Stupid Storyline!
This journal entry is dedicated to my beloved Boone. I can't believe they killed him off on Lost! GRRR! I, of corse will still watch the show, but I'm still angry! I watched Ian on Good Mourning American and he looked so sad to have had to leave the show, but I read somewhere that he's got a contract with ABC to be the star of a new show! I'll SO watch it for him!

Yeah so WEBSITE news: I've just finished my newest video addition. It's a Tess/Max video to Simple Plan's my Alien. It was a challenge at Magic 8 Ball awards and I love the song so I tried it out. I hate Tess/Max coupling though...yuck...I also did an Alex/Isabelle vid to Time after Time, which is totally tearjerker-y. Yeah so I'm also working on a new layout entitled Dreams which should be up soon with my two new vids and some more links to cool sites.

Well have a good night and watch the shows I mentioned!

NIP/TUCK (new season this June check out re-runs on FX)

LOST (although it no longer has the hottie Boone it's still an awesome show check it out on ABC and there is a special coming on in May that will recap the whole show for newcomers so check up on that)

SCRUBS (Comes on NBC Tuesdays at 9pm, it's a hilarious show, check it out!)

Project Greenlight (If any one is aspiring to work in entertainment or just simply think ben affleck or matt damon are hotties, tune into this show Thurdays at 10pm on bravo, It's very cool)

01:37 pm: la la la
Hello!
I've decide that I'm going to use this journal as an update page for my website from now on. Yeah cuz my life's so freakn' boring!

*WEBSITE*
SO I updated stuff.
I have three new music videos-two buffy vids, and a vid for The Notebook
I added some award sites buttons
I won THREE awards!! I've posted two of them and I just got another! YAY!
Yeah there's some updates!

oh by the by if you're not already, start watching:
LOST (abc)
NIP/TUCK (fx)
EYES (abc)
SCRUBS (nbc)
QUEER EYE FOR THE STRAIGHT GUY (bravo)
PROJECT GREENLIGHT (bravo)

They are all awesome shows, check tvguide.com for times k!?

04:03 pm: Hey there!
Today the cast lists went up for the Ren. Faire! I'm in six plays and a singing doll and a student director with the awesome Tory Doughty! That's alot of stuff, but I'm gonna try really hard cuz I love rehersals and performing! It's so cool! Ring dance is coming up....yeah It's not really bothering as much as people seem to think it should. I'm sure I'll be alittle upset Saturday, but I'll get over it. The Sadie Hawkin's dance will prolly be more fun anyways, and I am definately going to that datelss or not..Yeah so that's it for my life lately.

WEBSITE:

I think I'm gonna to do a video for The Notebook using "I will remember you" by Sarah McLachlan, so be looking for that..Coming Soon!

Oh and thank you to everyone who has been to the site I hope you enjoy it!!

02:40 pm: website
Hey there!
My website is finally up! YAY! GO check it out now...please!

www.compulsiveobsessions.com

Yeah so life's been normal I guess. I found out Romeo was gay which was depressing ,but oh well, that's life. Umm I'm not going to ring dance, but at least I can say it's by choice. I watched the Notebook yesterday...WOW what a tearjearker...but I LOVE a good cry so it was cool. People talked about Andrew in drama class and memories came flying back. I hate those memories...but yeah oh well, I got it all out with my cry...well this has been a very random entry but everyone please go check out my site it would mean alot and sign the guestbook!

bye bye!

04:56 pm: Romeo
Hello.
Yesterday I went to the one-act compitition at Prince George. It was alot of fun I'm glad I went and I'm even happier I wasn't in the one act, I had more fun because I wasn't all nervous and stuff. The Colonial Players did a great job and they should be proud of themselves! They placed fourth, but they still did awesome, they cracked everyone up!
I LOVE Prince George though. They are so freakin' awsome! They did the Suessafication (SP?) of Romeo and Juliet. It was amazing, they act with so much just naturalness...is that a word? They got first place and I kinda wanna go see it at regionals cuz it was just so good.
Romeo was a major hottie! I talked to him a few times during the day I'm sure he thought I was stalking him. I just didn't want it to be one of those things I do when I'm to shy to actually talk to the hottie and I just watch from afar. I wanted to take the chance to maybe have something happen. There's no guys that are right for me here so I have to look somewhere.Yeah Romeo was a sweetheart but I'm not his Juliet. I got the courage to ask for his phone number and he said he was sorta kinda taken. Yeah but I wasn't to rejected he did say he would have given me his number if he wasn't taken which was cool. Yeah I felt really stupid afterward though. But hey I'm not given up someone's bound to be not taken.
OH and there was this other dude there named Lash Dooley! How freakn' cool is that name! lol He was nice too, he reminded me of Jack black.
In all I had a really good time, I met and actually talked to a hottie, and I wathced some cool plays. Yeah fun day!

Also I think I'm going to Ring Dance with Nick. If he dosen't decide he dosen't want to go with me. He asked me and he is one of my best friends so I think we'll have a really good time!

Yep bye bye!

Oh and I don't know if carrie even reads my journals but if you do could you tell Rachel I said Congratulations!

01:55 pm: No More Exams!
YAY! Exams are over! They weren't too bad, great now I jinxed myself, good job, but anyways, life's been as boring as ever. I've been working on a website for a long while, I hope it will be up soon. I was gonna have a big site of everything that I like, but that was just TOO much so I decided to make it a video site for my music videos that I make. Yeah well that's what I've been doing.
SO in other news, I had an ITS metting today it was cool. I like being the President even though I don't do much. It's fun being in charge I guess. I found out it's gonna cost close to 600$ to go to New York! I know that's a resonable price for a four day stay, train ticket, and other stuff, but it's just SO much and I don't feel right taking that from my parents. I don't HAVE to go but it would be nice. I would like to get a job, but I don't want my grades going down right now, cuz college is coming soon. Oh college! I think I'm gonna try to go to Longwood. It's not my ideal choice, but it's realistic I guess. I like the way the school is set up and I can just go there for awhile and get my core classes out of the way and then go somewhere else.
Quick change of thought:
I was at Micheal's the other day and I was looking at the posters that they have of beaches and places all over the world, and I thought would't it be SO cool if I took a break from school when I graduated and just traveled. Yeah I know...never gonna happen...but wouldn't it be cool! Thee's SO many places I'd love to go and it would be great to take a LONG break from school and Colonial Heights. Yeah so back to the real world.
The Ring Dance is coming up soon...yeah I don't think I'm going. It's just not one of those dances you can go to dateless and well that's me...dateless. and I'm kinda sick of everyone talking about it...I would totally ask someone to go with me, but there's just noone to ask. GET SOME MORE CUTE, NICE GUYS COLONIAL HEIGHTS!! PLEASE!!
Okay I'm done whining for alittle while...
BYE BYE!

02:12 pm: Loner

You scored as Loner. </td> Loner 100% Drama nerd 75% Geek 38% Goth 19% Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 13% Punk/Rebel 13% Ghetto gangsta 13% Stoner 13% What's Your High School Stereotype? created with QuizFarm.com

I took a quiz and this is what I got...kinda depressing huh? well I guess I am sorta a loner. Well there ya go an update!

04:53 pm: grrr EXAMS!
WOW haven't written in awhile!
Well umm let's see what's happened lately.
Well it snowed and we got out of school for two days...but we didn't get to go to ITS conference which made me very mad! Yeah so now exams are all screwed up. They're gonna start on Thursday now, which is kinda cool so now I have some study time. I hate exams, what am I saying I hate school in general. But oh well I guess it's good to be educated. So anyways that's all that's happen. Yeah my life is boring.
Well Good bye for now.

oh and my throat hurts!

10:48 pm: MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOODNIGHT!!!

12:18 pm: video
Hello there!
Well I've been thinking, I have time on my hands and I love making videos so I was considering making a little video of some footage I have from Drama. Sort of a video that's only available online. Like I'll put a link to it on here and Drama peeps can check it out if they want. I guess it would include some stuff from last year and this year. It would prolly just be a music video and not so much narrative. Any Drama people reading this, leave a comment and tell me if you wanna see a new video! thanks!

and yeah Kristine that's the dude.

And sure tiffany I'll be a sailor moon person if that's what you want..lol...oh and I'm glad you found Harry!

Christmas in three days!!!

Bye bye!

01:07 pm: cold
Hey there!
It's Christmas break. Yep. I haven't done anything special. Just been chillin. Really I do have stuff I should be doing but I'm the world's biggest procrastinator. I have to scan some pictures for my rents, make a slideshow up with the pictures, find a monolouge for the Govenor's school thingie, and do my pyschology project. Yeah so lately I've been doing good. I've been crushn' on people lately which is wierd for me. I haven't really been "boy crazy" since like 6th grade. I'm more of one dude obsession girl. lol yeah that dosen't make me sound psycho. The best thing about my new crushes, none of them have the last name Mathews! :) One of my crushes works at Petsmart. I went there for some hamster food and there he was.....sigh...he said hey to me. lol. See now I feel so lame this is why I don't get crushes often.

Yeah so Christmas is almost here! YAY! I'm excited! Yeah that's all I had to say about that! lol.

Well that's pretty much it for me for now. BYES!

03:17 pm: useless test
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03:33 pm: I'm baaack
Hey! Haven't written in a while, but I'm back. A lot has happened, I'm over Andrew, I dated Nick for four days, I got an A in math, I performed at the carpenter center, and best of all, I'm happy. Yep exciting stuff.

So Yesterday we performed "Into the woods" at the carpenter center. It was awesome. Okay maybe not the show itself, but the experience was amazing. When we walked in I was blown away. The place was huge and so so pretty. We got dressing rooms that had the mirrors with the lights around them. I know it's lame, but it made me feel kinda important. Me and tiffany expolred most of the morning. And then we had to get ready for dress rehearsal. Dress rehearsal was...well...not to good. But while I was waiting we were sitting in the house and the ceiling had pretty twinkling lights in it to look like stars! awesome! Oh and when I was waitng to go on (cuz my scenes were like SO spaced out) I would sit in our dressing room and just listen to the play over the monitors. It sounded cool on there, it sounded more..put together I guess. And so performance time came and i was getting way nervous. And then I started to sing and my mic didn't work! I was freakn' but I just tried to project the best I could. Mrs. Wareham said that she still heard me so that made me happy. My mic got fixed after the opening act so it was alright. For the most part the play went okay. Afew people forgot stuff...including me, but people said we did a good job.
After the play Tiffany and I decided we should go to Denny's (cuz it's a tradition with our plays to go to Denny's after opening night...and me, tiffany and Andrew were the only one's that had upheld that tradition after CPOB). I asked people if they wanted to go and we ended up with kinda alot of people going. It was cool. except we were all pretty sleepy. Yeah so it was about 2am when I finally got in bed.
Oh and I woke up this moring and really wanted to watch the play to see how much we screwed it up, and i messed up the tape so now I can't watch it! I'm ticked! GRRR!
Well gotta go! Oh the memories!

03:30 pm: I'm no superman...
Hello again!
Last time I wrote I think I was upset right? I guess so. I'm better now. I've decided that NHS is nothing to worry about. It's a freaking cult and I would rather not be a part of it at all, but it looks good on scholarships. I hate things like that. I always have. I hate anything that makes me feel like I'm not in control of what I do or that limits my opportunities. That's why I've always been if-y about band. Not that playing instruments and stuff isn't fun..I would love to play an instrument, but it just seems to me that they have no control over what they can do because they HAVE to do EVERYTHING with band. It's crazy...yeah now all band people hate me...Wow, sorry I just went off on a tangent. Anyways, I've been wierd lately. It kinda upsets me. I'm slowly but surely turning into one of those people that I never wanted to be like. People who are just overwhelmed with everything and utterly confused with life. School is hard, friendships are hard, feelings are hard, life is just hard. but as Buffy says "it's what we have to do". Geek. I know that and I'll never stop trying harder. It's what I do. I have lots of faith in everyone and everything and that won't ever change. deep. I'm just in a deep mood, I have been alot lately. Thursday I was just so..stoic. I wrote songs and quotes all day at school. I just wanted to be inspired I felt like I had lost that and that has alwyas been what make me happy, inspiration. I was better later that day. I kept writing and thinking about one song lyric from the scrubs theme song..."I'm no Superman". And I'm really not. I never will be. My dad keeps telling me that I'm a perfectionist. and that I can't make everyone happy so just make yourself happy. Funny and exteremly depressing at the same time. I'm happy..just stressed. Sometimes I feel like it's hard to be happy because someone always seems to get mad at me and then I think of my amazing friends and family and I feel like I'm crazy to not feel completely blessed with everything that I have. I do feel blessed. And I tell God that everday. He gave me so much. I'm so lucky. Oh my goodness, this feels so good to write out. It's like everything I've felt lately. Sorry It's so emotional but It's helping me alot. Not many people know that I'm not happy all the time. And I think it's good for people to see that I'm not. I've been so confused lately. I don't ever want to let anyone down. Not my friends or my family or even strangers. I just want to make myself happy. If my dad only knew how ironic his advice is. Okay sorry I'm gonna stop writng this stuff now I guess. The first thing I wrote was that I wasn't upset anymore and that's the truth. I'm not upset I'm just...me.

Well anyways!
Last night was the party! It was fun! People seemed to have fun. My parents were awesome to do all the decorating it looked really cool! I'm glad the people that came ..came. Yeah so it was cool! yep!

Well I'm done writing now! Talk later!

04:01 pm: Reality: the leading cause of stress....
Today was....something. I went to school and I felt kinda cruddy cuz of women-y issues and then in second period I got a note saying that I apparently missed a meeting with NHS, which isn't even a big deal, but I guess I just subconsiously have alot more on my mind because I couldn't stop crying! I never actually cried at school cuz that would be really random if I just bursted into tears in the middle of class, but I needed to cry so bad. It was hurting my throat and my stomach because I was holding everything in and I couldn't take it anymore so I went home. I guess I'm just stressed and sleepy! Suddenly there's so much going on in my life and I'm just not used to it. but I'm "okay" now. My mom was very nice about it, which made me happy. I always feel like I'm such a brat, but I don't wanna be. I love my parents lots. Sorry random moment. Dude I'm SO freakn' emotional!
Well on another note, Our party's coming up soon! I know it's gonna be awesome! cuz DUH me and tiffany are throwing it! lol Just kidding. I'm going to get a costume on friday. I wanna be a vampire! lol I don't know why, i just do. I might be a devil though...err I wish I could think of something more creative.
Yeah and I just finished talking to Andrew all I heard was "blah blah blah Heather's mad blah blah blah" And that he thinks He's the reason I'm upset.... nope sorry andrew not his time!
Well I'm sure I'll be better tomorrow....